painless

I had a moustache of waterdrops. 

my mouth though

felt dry

I heard the bathroom door

getting kicked

hard

hard

again

"are you ok?"

I don't answer

"are you ok?"

still silence

I

whispered

I'll never write as good as he does"

the door gets kicked again

not that I ever cared about writing

after that I felt so much better

I immediately rolled a cigarette

I was on drugs, for the pain.

The pills were fine. 

So

I was 

hoping 

for the best.